Ya’know, I don’t know. I REALLY appreciate this! Like, alot. But most of the time I feel like I’m wrong for this role because I try to think like her, or she like I and I’m not sure if I’m really a strong, independent, free spirited woman whose willing to say, FUCK YOU IM DOING THIS THE RIGHT WAY, you know? I base Tauriel a lot off of how I’d like to be — if that makes sense, not like a self insert or anything, instead it’s what I try to aspire to be. But then I wonder if this is what others aspire to be? Then I go and to bring more life to the character, I create internal conflicts — I find a character with a internal conflict that deals and copes with an enormous external conflict, yet remaining a true leader is incredible. 

I’m ranting. 

I love you. 
I make no sense.