kingoftheravensa:

Send me an ✗ for my muse’s reaction to yours telling mine that they’re leaving and never coming back.

For a long while, the two had secretly been convinced that if any of them were to leave, it would be Loki. His desire for knowledge never let him anchor himself to a place for too long before he was off again to new lands and new people, but Tauriel’s duty rested with her place as captain of the Mirkwood guard and though Loki didn’t like to admit it, he knew they needed her more than anything. Even her temporary absence would leave severe consequences in her wake amongst those of the guard. She could not leave, but he could.

    They had been wrong.

    The words had come has a shock to Loki: I am leaving. Never had he thought that Tauriel, of all people, would have uttered such a statement and be entirely serious about it. She was leaving and where she was going she would not say nor would she give a legitimate reasoning for her eventual departure. Just, I have things to take care of. I am leaving and I am not returning. Do not come looking for me, Loki.

                           Do not come looking for me.

    It felt as though his heart had been pierced with one of the deadly Mirkwood arrows. Devastation and anger were just two of the thousands upon thousands of conflicted emotions that raced through his entire form, most of which did not match with one another and proved to only confuse him further. He was mad at her for leaving without him, for going against her claims that she could not possibly ever leave Mirkwood, but he was also happy for her. How could he be happy for her when she was pushing him away, leaving him behind in a place where he didn’t belong? He didn’t belong in the woodland realm and the only reason he had stayed for so long was because of her, and now she was leaving. Leaving for good. Would they ever see each other again? Had he done something to persuade her to leave, but to leave without him coming along? His throat felt tight and swollen and it was difficult to swallow what little saliva was in his mouth. This hurt. How dare she do this to him. He had offered time and time again to bring her along with him to the outside world, to the mysterious lands they both had yet to see, and yet here she was, saying she was leaving but that he was not to go with her, was not to even come looking for her. It didn’t make sense to the God.

    “I stayed here because of you,” he found himself saying in a voice that quavered with emotion but was also thick with a cold, hard anger that he was struggling to pent up lest he say something stupid. “I chose not to leave to continue my travels because of you and here you are, denying all my invitations for you to join me, to travel the world by my side, only to go gallivanting off on your own, claiming you will never return. What have I done to earn such mistreatment from you? Has my time here been for naught? Did I force myself to stay here for your sake, to get to know you better because I actually care for you, only to find that it was just a waste? Have I wasted my time on us, Tauriel?

    “You know what, fine, go off on your ridiculous adventure! Don’t come back! Leave for all I bloody care! When you decide that you want to return to this place, I will no longer be here. There is no point in my staying if you are leaving me behind. There is no point in continuing what we have when it is evident you care nothing for it to begin with.” The emotion rolling through his form was too much to bear and Loki had to turn and walk away as quickly as he could before he broke down in front of her and made more of an embarrassment out of himself. How foolish he felt for thinking life here on this realm would be any different to Asgard. To be honest, he yearned for the mistreatment he was dealt on the realm eternal; it beat the aching pain he was dealing with on this one. Let Tauriel leave. Let her seek what she wished for, let her live a happy life. He was not coldhearted enough to wish for vengeance. Because even if she had torn his heart straight from his very chest he still cared for her more than anything in the realms and beyond.

    And that was why he was letting her go.